Swollen Eyed?

Fate has it, no matter how nasty she is, no matter how irritating she can be, she is always my beloved Mouse. 

I still remember so vividly the images of me bringing her and her sisters home, and that was 12 years ago.

From the rushing back from school for first few weeks of tedious feeding, to the gradual change to soft food with porridge, then the adult biscuit, it was simply joyful to have her in my life. 'Mouse Chan Xiao Pang, I miss you, and I'm sorry I haven't been there as much.' 

Since she entered this senior stage of her life, it has been quite obvious things are slowly going down. Teary eye, swollen gum, & now swollen eye. I'm highly disturbed and I can't help thinking what I dislike. 

She is and will forever be my bestest friend whom I grew up so closely with... and it just saddens my spirit to see her age so rapidly

Proposal

This day came as a surprise, you bet it is.

Just when I thought I had enough of Christmas, endless cooking... Trey popped a surprise...

And here we are both engaged.

Merry X'mas.

Divorce

I'm not exactly sure if marriage is a good idea. 

How do people get married? How do people expect respect from each other? 

How can people even think of marriage when they have not given serious thoughts over it? 

Money, it comes in as part of an issue. Responsibilities, probably all part of the issue. 

Under one roof living with in-laws, housework, bills, children, and endless responsibilities. 

I don't blame high divorce rate nowadays. 

People probably just don't think anymore

Inadequacy

Thank y'all for helping me see.

Thank y'all who were not there for me.

My life's disappointment comes from those I never wish from.

Wonder, I sometimes, what are expectations of me.

I get tired sometimes putting up that smile.

That smile doesn't proof I've no ups and downs.

I guess y'all never understand my inner struggle till y'all see me crumble and fall.

Different

It is not easy to feel disturbed.

Old memories, common logic, emotional feelings.

They just aren't the same.

Reciprocation, doesn't seem to work both ways.

Is it insensitivity? Is it just convenience to disrespect?

That same look, that old feeling.

Somehow, they found their way.

Over, and yet again.

Sometimes

Hi again old pal.

It's been so long that we slowly come to realize you've been abandoned.

It's not that hard to keep up really, just whether if you think you can really.

Love Christmas

Thank y'all for joining me for dinner on the 23rd and 25th December 2008. It's been a wonderful year.



For those who couldn't make it... I thank you for your blessings!



Love to us old girls, Ms Toh, Peifang, Meepok, Uma, Shortie, Sharry.



Love to my cuzzie cousins, Claudia, Carolyn.



Love to my family, friends.



And lastly.... Love to You Mr Banana Chaser....

Nothing

How do we accept a someone in life?

How do we appreciate a someone in life?

How do we?

How do we be simply simple, simply happy, simply contented?

Sometimes the easiest in life just doesn't seem that easy anymore.

Breathing seems many times more tedious.

Communication seems to be put on halt.

How do we be we, constantly expected of being something?

How do we be we, when judged and thrown into bewilderness?

Sometimes the world just doesn't seem to accept you.

Sometimes the world just makes you feel nothing anymore..