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She's never felt so speechless, what has she been proving all along?

With all these madness, she just want to numb herself. Fatigue gets her going, at least it will stop her from thinking what worth she's of, really.

She dreads routine life, is there anything out there waiting for her... at all? Her immunity layer builds up as the day passes, she's losing interest for all she cares.

Sometime life seems meaningless. You lose your direction, you lose your focus. You end up lost and miserable.